...no more @ 10 weeks and 5 days

Well... With the spotting that started on Monday, I noticed it got worst as the time went on. This morning, I noticed some clots and knew right then and there that something wasn't right. I called in sick to work and on my way I went to the ER. Spent many hours there, had blood tests, a shot and an ultrasound. Somehow, as the nurse was doing the ultrasound, I knew that my "baby" was no longer alive...

After many hours of waiting for the U/S results, the Dr. called me in and announced that the blood count was dangerously low (which was a first hint that something was wrong) and that... the "baby" was supposed to be the size of 10 weeks was actually the size of an 8 weeks fetus and that it had no heartbeat.... Being there, alone was the hardest part! All I wanted was to go home...

Tonight, I'm saying good bye for good. I need to take these meds that will make it all go away and clean it all up... I'm expected to be in a lot of pain (which is why they prescribed pain meds)... I'm not looking forward to the outcome... I will post my last blog once I have gone through the last step... Then, I will eventually come back once I'm pregnant a second time !!!

Dx with Strep throat... ugh !!

So, yesterday was my birthday and unfortunately, I celebrated it at the ER! I had a running fever for over 12 hours and was getting worried of what it might do to the little growing baby... So I went off to the ER with my wonderful man. We didn't spend too much time, and I left knowing I had strep throat.

First question I had was: Is this antibiotic going to harm my baby? What he told me was that I needed to take care of myself, in order for the baby to take care of its self. So, here I am, on amoxicillin... Pray with me that all goes well and that my little baby is well protected in there !!!

Today: Prenatal physical with family doctor. I am only able to see my OB/GYN May 12th... Seems quite far away. Until then, I have to see my family doctor.

Worries this week: how are we going to get by when I'm on mat. leave !? my honey tells me not to worry about it, but... I do!

10th week

So... I'm almost at the 3 month mark and I cannot wait :)

This week, I've started a bad cold. My lungs hurt and I'm all stuffed up... I'm loading up on Vitamin C, hoping it makes it go away faster...

Since about two weeks, I haven't had any morning/day sickness... I'm quite happy about that.

So, every Sunday, I weigh myself and take a picture with the same outfit, at the same area. I still haven't up on any weight since the beginning, actually, I've lost a couple of pounds...

My stoma is keeping up! There hasn't been any change in "Stewie", the only thing I would say about my ileostomy, is that it is sticking out a little more since my stomach is starting to become rounder...

I am still very tired and don't have much energy. I still find it hard to get all of the vitamins or fruit/veggie portions because of my stoma.... I take vitamins, prenatal vitamins and drink smoothies...

I'm a little disappointed that know one has even checked out my blog... I guess I'm doing this for myself!

Unique bilingual baby names - SUGGESTIONS

So... I'm from a French family (Québec) and my boyfriend's from an English family. Our child will be attending French school and will need to have a bilingual name.

We're making up a list of unique names that can be nicely said in French and English.

Here is our current list. Please suggest any names by commenting to this post.

Boy:

- Ethan

- Garisson

- Caleb

- Xavier

Girl:

- Cahira

- Émilie

- Kyra

- Makayla

- Shauna

8 weeks, 3 days

I am now at 8 weeks and 3 days.

My life is pretty much the same. I was sick for the first time yesterday, but today, everything's going alright. I called around yesterday to make an appointment for a dating ultrasound and that's not until 3 weeks (by then I'll be at 11 weeks, maybe i'll be able to see the little thing..) I also called the obgyn office yesterday and they told me they were booked until June!!!

I started freaking out, not knowing what to do with a first pregnancy and an ileostomy. From having this, I am considered high risk and it would be better to be followed closely. But, I believe I will go ahead and see a mid-wife. So far, "Stewie" isn't causing me any problems and I don't see how he could. I'm taking pregnancy vitamins and drinking enough milk.

My stoma hasn't changed and my belly hasn't really been growing yet...

Sharing the news !!

Thursday January 20th, 2011, my boyfriend comes home after work. We talk a bit while I'm getting ready for work and say silly things. I couldn't wait any longer and say to him: "would you act that same way if you were a father?" He tells me to repeat and says "what do you mean?". So I show him the test stick and repeat my sentence.
He couldn't believe it. He was so happy and said: "we're going to be parents!!!" and the next thing he says is: "see, I told you I had strong swimmers..." (he had chemo and radiotherapy about 8 years ago).

As soon as I left for work, he ran over to his grandma's and his aunts and told them the news. Later on during the day, he told his parents and told the neighbors across the street since they just had a baby a few weeks ago...

While he's telling all of his family and some friends, I try to keep it quiet until I can tell my family that weekend. Come Friday afternoon, I drive over to my parents house to announce the news to my father. He then tells me that he already knew! I was so sad and pissed off, I could not believe someone else would tell my family !!!

I ended up finding out that my neighbors told another lady and she works with my mother. That lady told my mother who told my father.

I couldn't believe that I wasn't able to tell my own family my biggest news. It made me quite angry and let me tell you that I will never, EVER forgive this lady for telling my mother about my secret (and she knew my mom didn't know).

Finding out...

It was Wednesday January 19th, 2011 and it had been a while since I started feeling a few pregnancy symptoms: always tired and always nauseous...

That night, I decided to take a pregnancy test, even though I wanted to wait till the weekend. So I did the entire process and waited the 3 minutes. And thankfully, two little pink lines showed up on the stick.

I was extremely happy, yet didn't really know how to react... I waited and kept thinking...

That night, my boyfriend was working and usually, he comes in when it's not too busy. Unfortunately, he never came in that night. So I went to bed, feeling ecstatic and thanking God for what had just happened to me!!!